so after removing any trace of certain people from my main webpage i can't help but wonder, am i supposed to feel happy about it? i already don't feel good about whatever it is that happened, how it happened, why it happened, my first reaction to it, my second reaction to it, my third reaction to it, the response i got to my third reaction, and the subsequent relearning of how to live life when something to integeral to it is suddenly lost. so if i am supposed to be happy about speaking my mind and changing my website (and AIM buddy list and yahoo messenger list and hotmail contacts list and my pics at work and a host of other things) i don't. and i don't know if i will ever really feel "good" about things. i am already as we speak moving on and getting back into my "grove." but will i ever feel good about what happened and how i handled it? um no. this is like asking if someone feels better or good about their mother or sister or father or brother dying. you may move on, but you never feel good and you never QUITE get over it.